Sorry, I’m Not Black...?
I am often asked where I am from. It is because I don’t speak Konkani
or Hindi. They expect me to say, “Mumbai” or “Chennai”. I then say I am from
Kenya, and see the perplexed look on their face. It’s like their brain is
scanning for the meaning and the closest it lands on is “Canada”. Then I say, “No,
KENYA”. They frown in confusion. I
wait a few seconds, allowing time for their brain to reboot; then out of
boredom I hand them a life-line and say, “It’s a country in East Africa.” The “East” escapes them, but “Africa” registers! Oh! Kenya! But if you
are Kenyan why are you not black? I feel
like saying “I don’t know. Maybe because God made me this way?” Instead I
ignore the question and smile.
I have this happen to me quite often, but the
most pathetic one was, at the Dabolim Airport in Goa. My daughter and I were
travelling to Kenya and our passports and tickets were being inspected by an
army guard before we were allowed to enter. He looked at our passports, looked
at us, looked again , then finally said: “Why are you not black?” I was worried
that that would be a criterion for this gun bearing soldier not to let us travel.
What was I supposed to say? Sorry? I
just stared at him. He smiled and let us through. I was wondering that if that
was his job, would not have met other brown people with foreign passports? I
wondered if he asked a Goan bearing a British passport why he/she was not
white?
How can anyone not know about Kenya? We have been targeted by Al
Qaeda when they bombed the American Embassy in Nairobi in 2008. In 2012 a
leading Mall in Nairobi was attacked by the Al Shababs . Killing people
randomly, and targeting non-Muslims. President Barack Obama is half Kenyan!
Kenya’s main tourist attraction is the great migration of the wildebeests from
Masai Mara to the Serengeti in Tanzania. It is one of the wonders of the
world. So, why don’t people in Goa know
about Kenya?
Another comment I encounter about
Africa is “Africans are so poor. Why?" and I become defensive and say,
"90% of Indians are poor, Why?" This results in a stalemate. If
India is not poor, why are so many of their citizens seeking manual jobs in the
Gulf and Europe? If India is so rich why do people not have toilets, or adequate
water supply? Why does India have slums? (Slum Dog Millionaire)
I almost fell off my seat when a prominent criminal lawyer – not
my lawyer, by the way – said that he represents many Africans and other foreigners
in Goa, who are drug dealers or rapists. He then said, and I quote: “There is
no rape in Africa – even in Europe, everyone sleeps with each other, so how can
there be rape?’ What? Did he actually get a law degree? This
is the educated echelon of society. I was too shocked, but also afraid to say
anything because his son was representing me (not a criminal case). I should
have said that no one has a right to force him/herself upon another sexually
when the other person is not consenting.
Another lawyer also from Panjim, (I’ve met a lot of lawyers since
I’ve been in Goa) said to me that it is in the genes of the Africans to be hostile and that is why they were violent.
He was representing us in a case, so I did not have the guts to
disagree with him. He was the type who bore grudges and did not talk to you. So
I betrayed my people in my silence. But my personal opinion is that we all have
a propensity to be violent, given the circumstances. Is there no violence in India?
Did the Indians and Europeans not go to war with each other? Are the Isis
members only Africans or Arab but rather a mixed cross cultural group who terrorise
the world? As you can guess I am a coward, and incredibly scared of lawyers who
are handling my matters. (Big and fragile egos!)
Another lawyer who took a vacation in Mauritius said: “The blacks
working in the banks were actually
efficient”. So evidently racist. If you
are black you are supposed to be uncivilised? I have met so many people who
call the Africans “negroes”. In which
century are you living? I get so shocked, especially when Goans do that. Aren’t
our people all over the world? Many Goans work on ships or in the Gulf. They
have met and associated with people from different parts of the world. Don’t
they come home and talk about their experiences, and enlighten their family?
I wonder if this level of
ignorance is because of the education system in India. The curriculum is
specifically focused on the country. Children get to learn how amazing India
is, and how “smart” the politicians are. India is the largest democracy! While
every adult Indian has the right to vote, in most case the vote is influenced
by the media, and who paid it more money to publish them. The average Indian
basically believes everything that is fed by the media. The media only shows
the poverty in Africa and not its wealth, and development. I pick the
newspaper and hardly see any news on Africa. By the way why has Modi not gone
to Africa yet?
I am a Goan Kenyan, and I am not
black because I was born in Kenya to parents who migrated to Kenya a long time
ago to earn a living and have a better future. They became Kenyan citizens but
their hearts were always linked to Goa. They had two homes and my siblings and
I were taught about their life and love for Goa and Kenya.
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